Shut Up And Listen!
2018 has been a very mixed year. There have been a number of trials at work which contributed to five months off work very poorly with my mental health. I didn’t like going out, was extremely anxious and really struggled with everything. I was self-harming and I’m sure I was pretty difficult to live with. I have also been physically poorly throughout the year which means that I am constantly tired and in a lot of pain much of the time.
I went back to work on a phased return from the end of May which was very difficult, but I was gaining strength knowing God was with me.
Going back to work full-time in September was very difficult as things were still hard. Peter and I prayed constantly for things to change or for guidance as to whether I needed to reconsider my job. I prayed constantly in the car on the way to work, and when I wasn’t praying I was blasting worship songs.
Towards the end of September, I went to the worship team night at Church. We sang, worshipped and prayed. The atmosphere was tangible. Dee was with me and said that God had given her a word for me. She knew that work was very difficult, even though I hadn’t spoken to her about it. She then said that God was hearing my prayers but it wasn’t enough to just continually be praying. Dee said God was telling me to just “shut up and listen”!
That night as I drove home, I prayed and then stopped; no music, no talking. I was filled with so much emotion and a burning in my chest. God told me to go and speak to a particular lady at work, and He gave me the scripture of Matthew 18:20 “For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them”. I then started speaking in tongues out loud. This had never happened before. I haven’t got a clue what I was saying but words just kept flowing out of my mouth with such intense feeling and emotion.
I went to work and talked to the lady. She started to cry! She said she had it on her heart to come to see me for three weeks! She had been praying in her home group and she said God told her to find the time to talk to me about what we need to do at work!!
We have made time to pray at work and a few other people have come too. We have shared and cried and prayed. A few weeks later, after a really tough day, the same lady sent me a text which included scripture – 2 Corinthians 12:10 “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
The next day, my devotional from my year reading plan was 2 Corinthians 12:7-10! The same day, the ‘verse of the day’ from a Bible app was… 2 Corinthians 12:10! Three shouts to the same scripture in less than 24 hours – a very clear message!
A few weeks ago, Peter and I were praying and the Lord gave me a picture so clearly to “Keep marching” – strongholds will break.
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